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I swear the more I watch TV, the more I begin to think that people who hire some of the guys to be in the show are just doing it to make all us normal women be like….WHERE did you find HIM? 

Just a few examples. Well…a girl can only dream.

Meh, So I feel like everytime I watch Vampire Diaries or any of shows I watch on a regular basis, by the end of the episode I wonder where the heck all the men are like the characters in the show. I mean…..where are they? Gosh, by the end of the episode, I’m like drooling. Why didn’t there parents have more babies that were as beautiful as they were?!?! And of course, being this is my blog, I will list off a few with some smexy pictures! like for one example Drew Van Acker( Jason Dilaurentis from Pretty Little Liars)

I mean, Holy Jalapenos! He’s not even a main character in the show! Gosh! But he’s beautiful. And he’s only 4 years older than me! Yee!!! YUM! and then anytime I watch Vampire Diaries, basically majority of the male roles are pretty hott guys. For one, Ian Somerhalder( Damon Salvatore)

And that my friends, is my current background to my computer. And then there is Paul Wesley(Stefan Salvatore)

I mean, I’m speechless sometimes. So beautiful.  And THEN! there’s one of the ‘bad’ guys from the same show! Joseph Morgan (Klaus)

Hmm..doesn’t look too bad to me! hahah and then there is Michael Trevino (Tyler Lockwood)

And yah know what?!? The more I see pictures that compare Vampire Diaries characters to Twilights characters- Stefan/Damon vs Edward or Tyler vs Jacob—-I’m always picking the Vampire Diaries character. Still love me my twilight books, but man I’m swinging towards the VD.  Of course, I’m sure the list could have continued. And I have to add this because well just have to.

Adam Effing Lambert! In his video better than I know myself, Idk if I just think he is beautiful or hott or both. but holy shizzz he looks so good!! The character he portrays on the right side of the scenario is just so delicious. Oh and at the end of the video when he walks outside, yum yum yum. Sheesh. I don’t care about the hair- I think its pretty hot, or the fact that yeah he probably is wearing some make up and maybe lipstick/gloss. Dont. Care. So. Hott. And yah great, lots of good looking men are gay. What is up with that?! I dont know either!! But copy and paste the thingy below, that will bring up the video and you can see what I’m talking about!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lg31XQR22zg&ob=av2e

Bye.

So I’m stuck on my evolution homework. I guess I’m gonna have to go in and ask her for help. That class is killing me. I didn’t know I signed up for a math class. sheesh. I just want tomorrow to be over already. I think I dread Evolution more than Organic Chemistry…thats rough. I’m debating whether or not to go to my psych class tomorrow. We are watching a movie and I’m pretty sure I’ve already watched it. That will also give me more time to get help with this stupid homework. UGH. and im starving even though I ate earlier. like 3 hours ago. and im hungry again. I see a journey to the kitchen in my future. I got to organize my room a bit today. Yay! Spring Cleaning. Thank god Physics went by fast, although the lab write up is going to be a biotch. I had a horseback riding lesson today too. which was a good escape from the normal chaos that is my life. and as a bonus i got to bareback ride another one of my instructors horses outside. well by the end of the day, my hair is full of dirt dust and grime. hah one of the perks of being around horses. cant wait for my shower in the morning! im totally beat. this was barely a post but its something. to wear shorts tomorrow or not? that is the question of the night.

So I’m coming to the realization that my hair truly is getting longer. YAY! So of course today in Orgo, my professor rambled on about different reactions involving aromatic compounds/benzene compounds. I guess I understood? I can only handle so much of her every day.In psych we continued our talk about the comforting changes in the body due to aging. That’s one thing I can wait for. Thankfully my professor makes some jokes about it and lightens the mood. The whole class thinks she’s funny. Well at least it sounds like the whole class, I sit in the front so I could have a skewed perception. And I will say since I  sit in the front, I feel like half the time my professor is looking at me while making these jokes. Do I really laugh at every one of her jokes? That’s not possible. I do feel like a lot of the information we are going over, has been covered in A&P which I’ll bet my money there’s possibly 2 other people in that class that have taken it. But honestly I think I’m probably the only one. Then Evolution..well I got an 85% on my first exam in her class! YEE!  Pretty proud of myself. Work was crappy. Felt like I kept having to get the register, which I hate. And of course one of our creepy old patients called and talked to my friend, asked if I was working, stopped in later and asked again. Thank God I saw him before he saw me. I ducked down so fast behind the counters in the back. I definitely owe my friend something for helping him. But seriously, I don’t need him to talk to me and ask me all the personal details of my life that I would prefer not to share with any of our patients, and then his wife just stands there awkwardly staring at me-not knowing what the hell is going on. Half the time he ditches her. I mean he comes to the pharmacy, leaves and then 10minutes later his wife is looking for him on her stupid little electric powered shopping cart. I can barely understand her, but I know when she is alone, that she has lost him. And I feel like he does it on purpose. After she leaves, like 10minutes later we all hear a page for him because she still cant find his wandering ass.

So with senior year coming up, I’ve been thinking alot about what I may want to do. And I honestly don’t even think I would ever have the grades to do this, but I would really to be a part of a research team for Progeria. I watched a video that had a segment on it. It’s a rare condition that causes children’s bodies to age 9 times as fast as they should. Their overall growth is stunted. Their heads are relatively large compared to their bodies, they have wrinkles, narrowed/shrunken faces, no hair, and only live to be in their teens. Most of these children die of a heart attack or stroke in their teen years. I know cancer is on the top priority of things to find cures for, but just thinking about how children have to live that way is really saddening. They are children that are living in bodies that are more similar to those of the elderly. They have fragile bones, cardiovascular problems, trouble moving quickly due to joint issues/cartilage issues, along with other conditions not found in the non-ederly populations. Their mental and motor development is all normal. Cancer may be more widely seen than Progeria, but there is more known about cancer as well. I think working towards treatment or cure for Progeria would be very rewarding. Although it is very unlikely that this is to happen. It seems to have hit a soft spot in me. I just think that as a child, you should be able to run like a child. play like a child. do childish things. these children at the age of 5 have a body that feels like it is 40-45 years old. At 8, they feel 64-72 years old. I watched on that movie a boy who was 10 years old, who walked with a hobble, almost as if he was in need of a cane, because his body feels like it is 90 to him. It is just so sad.

Another year, another valentines day. Here is the typical part where I state how Valentine’s day makes me depressed and such. I mean, yea..I’m single BUT I’m not sure I would have it any other way right now. If being single means waiting for the right one to come along, then I’ll wait, not patiently but I’ll wait. Snow White said when I was young “One day my prince will come”, so now I wait for that day. SO until then I will embrace being single! 

For me- just an ordinary day. After Physics I went to workout. I wore my new shoes which are extraordinary! Love them. After Physics I caught up with my Salvatore brothers then followed them with Pretty Little Liars. Organic Lab was beyond pointless but then at the same time, I’m not complaining because it was not long. After lab, finished watching the rest of my shows and then took a very needed cat nap. Looked over some physics stuff and then procrastinated some. I’m so ready for this test to be over. Very thankful that when I am finished taking the test, I get to go horseback riding! yay! I hope I ride Ellie again. Also Thursday is payday! Yee! I need that. Ugh so my hand keeps bothering me because I burnt it. Pulling a pizza outta the oven, it almost slid right off the baking sheet and ended up burning myself in the process of saving it from destruction. My reaction to being burned on my knuckles went something like “F*** WHORES!” then all I hear is my dad….”Whaaaa?” Happy Valentines Day!

Ugh. I swear I hate being sick. I rarely do get sick, but when I do- I am not a happy camper about it. I dont know what it is but when I get sinus infections, they are always accompanied by an ear infection. Although the doctor didn’t see infections on my ear drums- I really don’t think my ear drums were red from the possible q-tip i used 4 days ago. No doctor- that’s not why they are red, you idiot. Along with my entire head screaming at me and the pressure behind my nasal cavity adding to the chaos, I also have the lovely ear pain. When people talk to me- my ears hurt. Listening to music-hurts my ears. Goddamit sir I have the early stages of an ear infection- I just realized it early enough that it wasn’t full blown yet. And I really thing that working and being under alot of stress just makes it worse.

So I’m hating organic chemistry. Her tests can go suck it. And lab tomorrow is looking like it is going to be a giant pain my rear.I can’t wait until I am done with this semester. But having Pre-calc over the summer is going to suck. Potentially when I’m doing that- my parents will be in Denmark and Germany. Love to know that I’ll be slaving away during the summer, like always, and everyone else will be having a great time somewhere I’ll never get to go. Psych! I’ll go there some day. Just not some day this year. Ugh I know that within the next year I’m going to have that rude awakening and melt down. Where I am not going to know what to do with my life. Do I continue going to school for my masters or doctorate? What do I even want to do? How can I make a decision like that? I barely make a decision on what color notebooks I want(dramatization). Do I want to work with people on a regular basis or do I want to work in a lab? Pharmacy? Scientific research? but wouldnt that mean testing on animals potentially? Totally conflicts with my morals. So I guess anything that would include animal testing I couldn’t do. I need to figure out where my life is going to go. Hmm. Not sure I have much else going on. Evolution test on Wednesday that I’m not really ready for. So I guess I will be studying tomorrow. Whatevs. Night

So today was crappy. I realize I rarely start my blog off with anything else. I just say So..blah blah blah. kinda weird? Whatevs. Today was back to the regular routine. My orgo teacher is finally back from doing whatever she finds more important than teaching us what we pay her to. Ugh. She’s slightly awful. It’s like we weren’t understanding some of the concepts in the chapters and she get all huffy puffy about it. Well maybe if you had been in class and gone over this with us when you were supposed to, maybe we wouldn’t be so lost. I’m not sure she realizes she hasn’t taught a class for a week with us. And of course we go over a quiz we are supposed to do for tonight, in class. Seriously? If ppl have issues with the quiz see her some other time. Office hours..that’s a good suggestion.So that was a good waste. Psych offers some good stories to listen to. She got me laughing today. Evolution was evolution. Not really sure how that’s all gonna go. I guess we have a test this wednesday. I checked the syllabus, but she has yet to mention it to us. Work was a freaking disaster. I’m getting fed up to the point of wanting to leave. We have ppl who call off multiple times per week, people who show up late, people who leave early, and people who like to putz around. I’m on my last nerve with some of them. Basically we didn’t have enough help tonight. Had a bunch in input, four point, fill, visual. the whole 9 yards. Got a semi-apology from one of our regulars who can be a real jackass. Kinda nice i guess. I think he realized that he is a total tool to me sometimes and potentially felt bad about it. He may have a conscience afterall. 5 scoops of ice cream after work and I still didn’t feel better. I debated going back for the rest of the carton, but that would just be pathetic and a shit ton of calories. I work with a filler pharmacist tomorrow and I’m not looking forward to it. I have an organic exam on Monday and basically have to go over everything and its mom to prepare for it. My professors exams are just the worst. Its like she throws us so much material in a way that we have not previously been exposed to. Its really helpful to prove you understand something when her test is 798721496214918 times harder than her quizzes. God I really think by the end of this weekend I’m gonna need a good drink. Well off to never never land-aka Dream land. Night

So it seems every time a Tuesday or Thursday come around it is near impossible to get up. I mean I’m even not showering in order to sleep in longer. God its disgusting. No, actually its quite amazing. I love waking up, brushing my teeth and not giving a shit who sees me at school. Not dressing to impress or putting on make up for no damn good reason either. Its so much easier not caring about what I look like. So after what seemed to be like an extremely drawn out lecture on circuits, I headed over to the gym with the same friend who I always go with. I ran 1.75 miles in 23minutes, which I will say I’m very impressed with. Not that is overly impressive, because it actually isn’t at all. BUT I am proud of myself. After the treadmill, I hit up the weights and did some triceps exercises and then why wouldn’t I follow that up with some ab exercises? Then I came back home for a bit, watch pretty little liars then headed up for a cat nap. I wish that I didn’t have to wake up from that nap. It was glorious. Just the perfect comfyness a girl could ask for. Then physics lab was a drag. I’m an expert at circuits apparently. God I knew I was meant to be an electrician. Then I headed off to my horseback riding lesson. It was at a new location because the owner of the old barn we were at was a crazy effing cowboy. Seriously. Whatevs. The new place was very quiet and privately owned.  It was kinda muddy, but that’s to be expected after the snow melts and the horses get walked in and out to the pastures. But it had a nicely sized arena except there were stupid hunter jumper jumps everywhere. Whatever. I got to ride a horse of my instructors that I haven’t before. I enjoyed my lesson a lot today. Ellie has a much bigger gait than other quarter horses and is taller than most as well. So it was nice to ride a gait similar to the warmbloods I am used to riding. I rode bitless, which was weird for me but I love a good challenge. Sara was really pleased with how I was riding Ellie. I love being good at something. And not just yah yah she is good at that. Truely good at it. Its like sometimes I feel like riding horses is more natural for me than walking.Weird, eh? But for dinner, what did I have you ask? Gosh silly, take a guess! Panera!!! After my indulgence I tried to do my organic chem moodle test. Gosh it sucks. So I’m taking my break and writing this up. And I decided to look for shoes. I really need new gym shoes/ every day shoes. And why the heck do they have to be so expensive? Sheesh! One Hundred bucks for some shoes? Really? Am I being cheap? And what’s with all these weird colors? I want something I can wear with everything. As cute as some of these are, like black shoes with pink accents… I’m not gonna be able to wear those all the time. Come one Nike! and Adidas- get it together.

UGH. So I had another bad day in the world of food for Jen. I finished the other half of the pizza from yesterday. And now here I am again, sitting with like 5 scoops of ice cream. This time I went for the neapolitan…that looks weird to me. I feel like it should be neopolitan. whatevs. So Lets see…psych was another day in psych. my professor laughs at all her own jokes and provided us with some laughs. In Evolution we watched a video on the Arms race or something. Kinda interesting. I started completing my CEs for my pharmacy technician license/certification. Pretty proud that I have completed 6 credits and barely read one of them. Yay!!  Only 14 more to go before November. But I think I wanna finish them all within the next 2 weeks so I don’t have to worry about them. And of course, it was another grand day in the world of Walmart. Three people called off and it was like chaos all night. Basically everyone had an insurance problem. Its like half the time, someone before me did it wrong. Either not even running it through the insurance or putting it in wrong. And then there’s the ppl that bring in their ID number and Group number. and that’s it. Lady, do you realize how many insurance plans are out there? And no, United Health Care does not make the list any smaller. Oh you work in health care? then you should know! Half the time even though it says UHC, its Merc-medco. I hate insurances. They suck. And the drive thru sucks. Sorry but if you ring the buzzer and then 5 seconds later ring it again…guess what? You aren’t the only person I have to help. So now that you’ve pissed me off you get to wait now. Its called learning some patience. And the fact that you are running late for work isn’t my fault. Maybe you should leave earlier than usual if you wanna pick up your scripts. Its called learning how to manage your time. I mean do I have to teach you that and patience? I’m only 21…wise beyond my years I suppose. God and yah know what else just puts me in a bad mood? Jason Mraz. Seriously…idk what is it about him but I scramble to change the song when he comes up on my itunes. I’m thinking about removing him all together. I just don’t see what is so great about him…oh nothing! I think his voice just annoys me and he really isn’t that great. Gosh, I can’t wait until after physics tomorrow. I need a good work out. I think I’m gonna work on my arms and abs again. then I have horseback riding after lab. Its about time! its been too cold for me to ride and now I’ll finally be able to use my new boots and half-chaps! YEE!!!Then after, michaels with my mommy and then studying organic chem. Grrrr. Ps. my ice cream was godly.